Double Rainbow!

Life?

Absence of the blogging world has made me feel… weird.  I don’t know.. The last few weeks have been really strange for me.  It seems like my life has gone topsy-turvy… It’s funny that one thing can be the start of many shitty things to come.  One minute life can be the greatest thing you will ever know and then the next it’s the shittest thing you will ever know.  Really, it’s the only sure thing that any of us know.  Sure we gain knowledge about many things about so many different subjects but all we really have is our life.. our brain.  We don’t know what happens outside of our heads, what happens in other peoples heads, what everyone else is thinking (a subject I think about a lot) .  I wish i knew what people thought when told something important, or even if they are told something so small… peoples reactions are rather interesting… I know my reactions are.  Life is unpredictable.  The things you were so sure about yesterday, are now like dirt.. easily washed away if rained on.   I’m sorry if i’m not making much sense… My brain is a muddle lately.

2 weeks ago a friend killed himself.. Because of love.  He was my age (21).  Still quite unsure about how i’m feeling about it.  I’m sad, i’m angry, i’m… so many things i can’t even write.   Abandonment has always been an issue of mine, and when something like this happens, i tend to let go of all the good things in my life so i don’t get left behind.  People don’t understand this.. i don’t either really.  I was told that people usually grab hold of the good things when something like this happens… I understand that.. but i haven’t ever been that way..   I wish i could show people inside my head sometimes, then maybe someone can tell me what’s going on..

Ok sorry about the weirdo post…

I’m out.

seriously… lol

just watch….

Understatement

Life really sucks sometimes.

Worst. Day. Ever.

What a horrible day.

R.I.P Shane. 

My heart goes out to everyone who is feeling the pain of your decision.

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If I Had You

oh my!!!

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Drummer At The Wrong Gig

seriously funny shit.

Why Cry?

Today i decided to chuck My sisters keeper into the dvd player to, obviously, watch a good movie and possibly to have a good cry.  Then i got to wondering.. why is it that us womens love to have a good cry, you know, get everything out.. let go of all the emotions of the past… day/week/month/year/years even!

Is it because we were ‘brought up’to show our emotions?? What about us women who were never really brought up to show too much of anything at all??

My family have always been very… closed.  With everything.  I mean, we all love eachother and we all know it.. but we were never really that close.  It’s so weird for me to see childeren and parents laughing and acting like great friends and being all dorky together, i try to think of me doing that with my mum.. and just end up feeling a little bit creeped out.  I love my mum.. like crazy.  She’s a great woman and always supported me but our family has never been that open with our feelings and emotions…

So, what about men?!  Do they ever like to watch a good movie and have a little blubber on thier lonesome?  I’ve never even thought to ask my Adam or any of my guy friends.. wouldn’t that just be a little weird though..?  Asking some guys when/if they like to cry..

The only time I ever really see guys cry is when they hurt themselves or if they are drunk.. I know that they do cry.. but do they like to cry like us?  Willingly.

Hmmmm *ponders*

Do you know of any guys that love to cry?  Do you know why guys don’t like to cry?  Why is it perhaps they think that crying is a weakness? especially when everyone does it?

enlighten me?

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Daily Affirmation #3

I will make my life, what i want it to be.

Happenings Of Late

ok, i know i’ve been increasingly absent.. but my mind has been a blank.. completely. My mind is occupied by future possibilities and i’m just feeling really happy lately.

Here are two videos of the super cute Kerli! i love her cuz she loves dolls and cute creepy things like meee!! haha

Walking on air ❤

Tea Party (from the alice in wonderland soundtrack)

On another note.. have been watching alot of movies lately..

Shutter Island –  Awesome

Big Stan – Hilarious!

Eclipse – ❤

Night At The Roxbury – Dorky Funny!!

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